Why So.... Stuppppidddd Son

Few months back...I was dealing with an Ulallu.. one day I was so depressed I felt like putting a blade on his throat n then wanted to ask[In a husky voice]: Why So.... Stuppppidddd Son? :P

ઉઠો... જાગો... અને ફરીથી ઉંઘ ના આવે ત્યાં સુધી ટાઈમપાસ કરતા રહો.. - પ.પુ.ધ.ધુ. શ્રી 1008 બાબા ચિન્મ્યાનંદસ્વામી!!!

The Confusion!!!

Just like a lost soul
on the edge between the life and death
I am wandering... I am wondering...
Not sure what I've in my heart for her is it Love... or Pure Hate?

Yet another one liner.. pops out...

Never Love Some One So Much... That When She Is Not With You... Your Soul Hurts...

Dusk Of Friendship

In the middle of the war, surrounded by the enemies
guarded by my friends, fearless I stand
on the dark, deceiving lands
We fight'em hands in hands
Never I thought about defeat,
with my friends on my side I shall not fall
I was confident that we'll win it all
then suddenly it happened, just before the nightfall

One of my friends, corrupted from inside,
I dunno what could be the reason
for his unholy treason
stabbed me by my side, and gave a smile
As I fall, I could not help but return a smile
and just before the sunset... I saw... Dusk of Friendship..

New Learning on Friends n Foes

I DONT FORGET my FRIENDS, and I NEVER FORGIVE my FOES!!!

Lucifer's Little Angel

There it was... reign of the dark princess
She has been ruling all the worlds, and souls of men,
Forever - Now n Then...

They say- no one can look in her eyes
As she holds fire of thousand hells inside
Immortal she is, immune to Earth, Sea, Fire n Ice
She's Lucifer's li'l Angel... Her name... Malice

મુર્ખામી તો થઈ જ મારાથી.. એમાં કોઈ શક નથી...
ને હવે સમયનો તકાજો તો જુઓ...
એના પર હક કરવાનો પણ મને હક નથી...

Shadows Of The Storm

Here I stand... starring'em with my naked eyes...

Far on horizon... I see'em coming... the rising...

Little afraid I am of unknown..

lurking behind those dark clouds, something dark, something evil

I've seen it all before and I've won the war countless times

still I wonder, what if I can't pull it this time...

I will end fighting against'em.. the dark.. Shadows Of The Storm...

તને યાદ છે?

એ ભીની ભીની વરસાદી સાંજે... એકલા અટુલા.. ખૂણામા ઉભા રહેતા આપણે.. એ તને યાદ છે... ?
ઝરમર ઝરમર વરસાદ હોય તો પણ... વરસાદ બહુ છે.. એમ કહી તુ મને રોકતી.. એ તને યાદ છે... ?
લોકોનાં ટોળામાં.. આપણે બેઉ એકલા... ચુપચાપ.. કલાકો સુધી ગુફ્તગુ કરતા... એ તને યાદ છે... ?
એક દિવસ મળાય નહી.. તો તકલીફ થતી હ્ર્દયના એક ખૂણામા... એ તને યાદ છે?
તારા શ્વાસમાં ભળી જતી મારા શ્વાસની ભીની સુગંધ... એ તને યાદ છે?
આંગળીના ટેરવાઓના સ્પર્શની ભાષામાં વાતો કરતા... એ તને યાદ છે?
એક ઝ્લક લેવાને... તુ મારીને હું તારી... કેટ કેટલા બહાના બનાવતા.. એ તને યાદ છે?
મને યાદ છે.. એક એક ક્ષણ તારી જોડે વીતાવેલી... તે જ ભુલાવી દીધો છે મને... એ તને યાદ છે?

મારા અહંકારને સપ્રેમ ભેટ...

આગનો દરિયો...
હું એક જ તરવૈયો...
ઉપરવાળાની બનાવેલી કાયનાતમા...
હિજડાઓની જમાતમા..
હું જ એક ભડનો દિકરો...
આગનો દરિયો...
હું એક જ તરવૈયો...

:)... a long back... I told this to Zwap.. about myself..

A Man... Never Really Changes From Inside.. He Might Act So That You Feel.. He Is Changed.. But.. Inside.. He Is One And The Same...

Cries Of A Bleeding Heart

Hmmm... I am a man.. and I am very proud to be one... but I am not afraid.. nor ashamed that... I am crying blood tears nowadays.. I am hurt... my heart. is ripped apart.. naah.. not by some girl... I am not that vulnerable.. it is just .. I see.. clearly.. what I was and what I've become... I was used to be a brave soul.. always strong... never allowed anyone to humiliate me.. no matter what situation was that[ok... except some incidents.. but those were the times.. when I was nothing... and my character building was not complete...] but now? after so many years of continuous victories... what I've become? a coward? I agree.. I am, lot more successful [Well from everybody else's perspective], but in my own eyes? I am no more than a crawling insect. Living life as others want me to... not the way I want to... fighting with myself every moment ... to not to lose control and do something about bastards bothering me. I never meant to be like this.. is this the price I must pay for what I wanted to be? If yes, then I suppose... now is the time I do something to give up this ... so called success... I've never let anyone control me... and if I wish to live longer... then now is the time I take back control of my life. Since last few months ... one question is bothering me ... I keep asking this question.. in the context of my current situation... and what I am doing to fix it... the question is : WHAT THE FUCK I HAVE DONE LATELY?

Living life like a Dog or worse...

yes.. I am talking about myself... no one else... it is not that I have any tangible problems which I can not handle. I have also made peace with my imaginary enemies :P... I have a ROCKING carrer.. even in this slow down.. I am rocking.. I am learning a lot in this new engagement.. with my new found pace.. I am riding my career really smooth.. on personal front I've good friends...and have no regrets of how I lived my life earlierp[Eh.. except certain things] and still I am not happy.. and dunno what to do next... :(

Sorry.. not an article.. just another one liner...

Exceptions are so common in time space continuum.

Shall I change my blog's name to ... Chinmay's One Liners or something.. eh?

One more... One Liner...

So many lives... So many faces... But still the Soul stays unchanged... Pure... Evil...

Walking on the old roads

Ya Ya.. It's been a long time n blah blah blah.. but eh.. what the hell.. who cares? now coming to the point... I've been a big time looser since last 2.5 years and that's a fact... a one which I must accept and with what I must live. And it is not just that I am afraid that in this global slow down I might loose my job.. no not at all.. I am proud that even though I've been acting like a big time looser I am still better than others around.[Yupp!!! No Hard Feelings Guys... Accept It.. I am still faster than 80% of you and another problem is.. you can't even imagine.. what I can do.. ;)]and ya... I know there is a chance that I might get fired..but eh.. again.. what the hell... who cares? If I continue working with my new found rage then there wont be such a case. Also for people like me, nothing works like a break.. you know if you keep working on and on.. you will break... ya.. I did.. and I had to take a little break from my work... but then I came back... and anyways.. I was feeling my reputation has gone with the wind somewhere.. and I really didn't like it.. so to gain the glory back.. I've decided to be like how I was 5 years back... I was bad... I was mean.. but I was sharp.. I was smart... and I was better than what I am today. So first things first, I stopped playing Counter Strike[to save 4-5 hours a day and night :P] and have started waking up really early.. and when I say early.. I mean it.. I wake up around 5.30-5.45 and then I go for a morning walk around 6.30 and by 7.30 I am back. And then I begin my day that ends at night around 12.. so it is kindda awesome.. and results are phenomenal... on Professional and Personal front as well.. fingers are crossed.. I am still at my 60%.. when I cross 80% I will be working like my old days at Etech... and that would be the day where I will show my middle finger to those who dare to challenge me... Insha-allah...and that day will come soon.. let's hope for the best... I can feel.. the good times are ahead..

Random Quotes.. yeah.. my original..ones..

• Life is nothing but a randomized execution of an unknown instruction set.
• Once upon a time... I was used to be a hunter.. now.. I am just a consultant.
• Angel Of Darkness asked me : You got light?
• કોઇને ચાહવુ એ દિલની આદત છે.. ચેતવણી : આ આદત જાનલેવા છે..

keep watching.. I will keep posting.. :)

Fucking Australian Cricketers

Ricky the shitty ponting points that India won 20-20 world cup luck by chance... I say eat shit faggot...also, asshole adds Dhoni and Yuvraaj Singh doesn't have any technique and it is sheer luck they could pull it. aaaah... seems some white ass(literally..) is burning... well.. then what you have to say now Mr. Potting(:P)... now in ODIs and 5-days matches AU is getting raped again and again by India(yeah.. the same MS Dhoni and Yuvi banging your bros on the field man..)?

And one more SoB, Adam... this bugger wrote about "The Tendulkar"... I say... yo motherfucker.. you shouldn't even take his name.. you are no more than his ... eh.. leave it...this bastard wrote.. Sachin and his team cheated during the Sydney test(ROFL)... you ... bloody asshole.. what you were sucking Steve Buckner's dick when he was getting his mother banged? also the whole monkey episode... wat the fuck... I am damn sure the smart sardar said : Teri Maan Ki Gaa.... and you took it as Monkey.. common assholes... we wont insult monkeys by comparing you with them.. and anyways whole world knows about your roots.. your culture.. fucking England sent all the criminals to Australia and then you evolved.. just like roaches in gutter..and ya.. beggars WE, Indians are fucking you... front-back.. up-down.. left-right and anything else you can imagine.. .. we are rich.. we rock.. no matter how much your cricked board cribs... we will keep banging you as and when we want..

and.. ya.. I really liked Smart Sardar's comment on these two bastards.. he said : These bastards wasted their time in writing.. and that's why their cricket sucks".. he ha ha ha ha..

Life... Nowadays...

It's been a while since I have posted here and this time I am making no promises to post regularly.. just wanted to express my self.. you see this blog is supposed to be my reflection... anyways.. coming to the point.. I've been into many troubles lately.. I don't know why.. maybe I am getting dumber n dumber ... day by day.. may be it is this company I joined 2 years back.. I dunno what it is.. and ya.. lately.. I have not tested any kind of success professionally.. last time it was December 2007 when I got promoted.. but that's that was the last good thing that happened here.. in this dead city.. Hyderabad...as of this writing.. I am listening to a old song.. lovely.. reminds me of my teen years... I was used to be honest.. and straightforward.. now I am a bloody consultant.. I manipulate I am afraid.. what I breathe ... not remotely.. close to Honest and nothing is straightforward.. I think may be these are the signs that my time has ended in this Industry.. or I should start something new.. I am not able to understand.. as of now.. confused sate of mind... everything is so blurry... I don't know what I am doing.. anyways.. surviving this crisis... will not be a problem.. I am positive about everything in my life.. since last few years.. maybe this is happening for a reason.. maybe the reason is beyond my vision... but let's hope its for.. greater good.. see ya.. around then...