What the Hell.....The why I dont have a Passport? story

I must admit that I must be out of my mind when I decided that I will not get a passport 3 years back when I started my career with ESS. It wasn't only that I didn't want to hurt my father's feelings and never wanted to go away, it was somewhat laziness too 'cause at that time Passport was used to take a looooong time... yeah ... really long time... and was kindda odd process to follow. And after coming out of my initial craziness about US I thought I'll never ever go abroad. I thought I will not ever need a passport. Over the time my father was used to bring passport forms 'cause he thought one day I might need it. And yeah I remember he filled in the forms for me 3-4 times... but I never signed them... was thinking I don't give it a damn. I don't wanna go anywhere ... why I'll need a passport?

And then... I moved to Hyderabad in an amazing software development firm and as soon as I met my manager, the first thing that striked me out from the air... was : what???? YOU DON'T HAVE A PASSPORT? so I went all frenzy and called home that I will have to get a passport. And then we began the process and there were too many hurdles and then at last I got it right and my application went in directly to the Regional Passport office and then I went there to submit it on time... and woooo... what I come to know is I wont be able to do it as ACCORDING to the rules I didn't have enough documents. So I had to go back home and gather them. Next day.... another monkey sprang out of the box saying the document I have produced is not proper it should be done the other way... and I was .... Holy.... Cow... for god's sake... can somebody tell me... what's going on in here.... anywayz after a lot of road-running, high-adrenaline action I could submit my application but trust me it was tough and I must say I did nothing... my father did all the hard work for me... and I take this opportunity to thank him... I am not sure whether he is going to read this or not but I felt like people who read my blog(may be no one reads this blog...) must know the truth that without his help I would have never submitted my passport application and ofcourse when I see back ... in my dark days I must say he was the only one who trusted me, nowadays I have got so many friends but in my hard times he was the only person who believed in me. He stood beside me in every thing I screwed up let it be 12th Science, my BCA, my first job... everything. So here I guess... I have said wat I wanted to say about my father and the Passport now lets see what happens next....

Ohh... I am going back...to home...

Yeah... I planned this... a long ago... to be specific did it on 5th December I booked the tickets. This time I am going to have a big Xmas time :) Ofcourse I am going back after almost 1 n half month and I know for sure its going to be fun. I have arranged a lotsa things to have fun.. so catch you guyz after Xmas. :) Happy Holidays....

The Training Day...

Just before last weekend started, on Friday night, I was having dinner with Avi, Prateek and Saurab. Suddenly Avi started saying about the training we are going to get on Email Writing. I was shocked... lil bit amazed and furious too... as I was thinking that what kind of joke it is? After spending these many years (You know if I count my Infocity days too, my total experience is now reaching to approximately 6 years) in the industry and writing thousands of emails to managers/customers/peers I have to go through training on writing emails? That was my first reaction to the whole thing. Also it was mandatory so I didn't have any other option than attending it. I was disappointed at that time but really didn’t know that I am going to be totally wrong in a very near future. So on 18th, Monday morning, I was on my desk on time, but was late for the training but then nobody was there and I thought that I will not have to go to the training. But I was wrong, and after an hour of confusion... running here n there finally we were in... inside the training room. And then I saw our trainer for the day. I'll refer her as MG (Don't wanna be in any trouble). First impression was she was very enthusiastic and organized but as we progressed in the training for the day I saw many qualities which are essential in any trainer. First thing, this was the only training in which I didn’t sleep reason the trainer charged the entire room with energy. There was not a single chance for you to do anything else during the training as she was always watchful and proactive to stop any kind of extra co-curricular activities we would have tried to do. During the training I learnt a good deal of things in Email writing that is trainer was well-prepared, had enough things to teach, didn't use PowerPoint to bore us, was eager to answer our queries and best of all she made the whole session very interactive so that we don’t loose interest. Really it was a whole new experience for me to be in this training as I have never seen somebody training this way.

After the training was over I was thinking that what If all the trainers in India were like this or at least they try to be like this, I can guarantee that things would have been lot easier for all of us. I don’t know why but most of the trainers I have seen lake the essential qualities and then results are well known. Anywayz, I guess I have many more things to say... but then I will be ending up writing an essay instead of a Blog Post.... :)

My Dreams DO try to tell me something... I just dont get it...

Look at the post... below this... just below this post I wrote about my dream, in that dream, I was in a strange condition, I called it strange, but it was shameful...actually.... and it happened... exactly.. the meaning was that only...I was supposed to complete a simple task that I would have done when I was having zero experience of any given technology, and just day before yesterday I saw myself... just like a dumb person ... who doesn't know anything...about simple stuff in computing... it was awful... I would have died... but I didn't... 'cause I am shameless, but one thing is for sure, from now onwards, I'll be extremely careful and may be dangerous on professional front. As right now I am just being soft with the people around me 'cause I just want to make them feel good.. I dint want to unleash the beast that stays inside me... the hidden creature .... the sleeping evilness that I am holding back.... deep inside me... must stay the way it is right now... No No... I am not out of my mind, people who knows me after I entered ETI just dint know... what I am? Only ZWAP knows... how I was, he felt it the very first day he entered ETI and was sitting beside me, but thanks to him, today I am pure....I am clean... I am a nice human being(I am proud to be nice), I wanna stay this way, but people won't allow me to be like this, they want me to open the dark door... they want the beast to be awaken... and I look at them... pity on them... the day I start changing... back to original me.. I'll be a good professional but a useless person... now choice is theirs..... alright... should stop now.... wanna sleep tight.... I wanna start a fresh day.... tomorrow.... peace........