No More Rules ;)

Oh Again After a while I am back I don't know what triggers in my mind make me write this blog. This one is not my tech blog and I am darn sure no one else reads it but me. I don't see a point where I need to share what I feel with the world but I need to write it down for myself. Someday I will open up this blog ... look back at this post and I will realize what I was feeling this exact moment.

I am really surprised how things changed in last few months. My hunger for achieving has fired up again and have some new targets but I don't feel like pursuing them with as vigor I was used to few years back. One incident can change a man so much... I never believed so. Time goes by and I keep going on but then my purpose is missing. Career goals, financial goals, family responsibilities all these I can take care of and I think it was never a challenge after I realized how pathetic an average IT Professional is around the globe. Bring in some quality work, right attitude and put in some extra efforts, gain technical and soft skills and there you go. The world is your bitch and that shall take care of all logical possible goals you have.

My goals were never a really hard target, many of my friends think I am blessed and I do like to keep it that way. Many of them don't see my efforts and prices I pay to stay on top of the game. However that doesn't bother me much even I believe[up to an extent] that someone up there watches me after. Every mistake I make or accidents I face that someone has a plan for me and it works out in strange manners.

I have been bit shy about this... but I have a confession to make. Even earlier I was very objective when it came to feelings. Being One of the most selfish soul on this planet, I always think for myself first and how can I take the best advantage of any given situation, no matter good or bad. And yes.. that's not the secret I am sharing here. Secret is .. of late I find my self way way detached.... as if my old self ... early teen years.... I don't like to interact with others unless n until I absolutely have to. It is really bad 'cause that is causing lot of troubles in my personal life. I am absolutely OK when it comes to business but other than that I just cant stand most of the people around me. In that sense I loved Kansas... many a times I was used to go out for a walk and I streets were just plain empty no matter what time of day it is. Compared to that.. Gurgaon is like... living hell... people crawling like roaches out of a gutter... vehicles honking.. breaks screeching... people shouting ... a perfect definition of a hell for me. But hey.... it is still better than Bombay for me. I am scared of Bombay .... it is more crowded than my hairy.. well.. you get the picture... right? :P anyways... enough of this... hardly a year left to make a recovery... after next Feb no more.... "RULES" . Let's see if this has an impact on anything or anyone or not. :D